Prepare To Be Shocked, Reduced To Tears Yet Amazed & Inspired
The pain was intense, raging through every vein in my body, it hurt, it hurt so much. In sheer desperation I raised my head and brought my face crashing into the wall, as the blood trickled from my nose, for that slight second the pain was gone. Only I knew it would return with greater [...]
Depression is not just being sad, sad is rational, often short-lived and does not usually overwhelm your entire being for weeks on end. What does depression feel like? Depression is far more than just being sad. In my experience there is no emotional state that is worse than depression. It’s like some kind of chemical imbalance [...]
I can single handedly say that having my daughter is saving my life. Simply because if I didn’t have her, I know I couldn’t stay here. I have struggled with depression as long as I can remember. I grew up with alcoholic parents in a domestic violence environment. Suffered from anorexia and bulimia as a teenage and [...]
Government cuts are causing a high rise in suicides. The mental health of benefit claimants is being put at risk by welfare reform. Work capability assessments, which identify those fit for work, are singled out for criticism by health professionals, campaigners and claimants. I know all to well how Atos and these work capability work [...]
I am getting better. “There is a light and it never goes out”. I Just want to take the time to share my roller coaster self harming ride with you all. I finally feel ready to talk more openly about it all. Self-Harming Story; I Finally Feel Ready To Talk; So from the age of 15 I [...]
I don’t remember when Lisa Bevan walked into my life, but it was a time when things were at an all-time low. I was trapped in a domestic violence marriage with three young children. I don’t recall having that first conversation with her about the abuse I was receiving, but I know how difficult that [...]
Today I was asked “So how do you get depression?” From a mum who is feeling rather frustrated and angry as she believed she was a strong person and had never thought she would ever fall victim again after suffering with postnatal depression in the past. Here we take a look at some of [...]
“A man’s illness is his private territory and, no matter how much he loves you and how close you are, you stay an outsider.” Accepting help from others is a challenge that anyone who has experienced mental illness, I am sure will agree with me, is difficult. “I can do this alone, I [...]
Living With Someone Who Has Mental Illness; Relationships Torn Apart We met online after I had escaped an eleven year abusive marriage, I was manic, no questions asked. I was suffering greatly from mental illness yet life was fantastic, but in the midst of it all it wasn’t. Not really. I had packed up three children [...]
Yes I look OK, yes I act OK. But you don’t see the fucked up mess behind the fake smile. I have no clue about who or what I am. I am a jumbled, mixed up concoction of fake and reality. If there is a Jekyll and Hyde then I am he. I am good [...]
Another night and I am unable to sleep, my mind is in overdrive despite my medication being doubled in strength last week. At my last appointment with my shrink, he made a note that I need to claim DLA. I explained I had claimed it it last year, was refused so accepted that. I did [...]
I am in bits right now, I have just found out that my ex raped me several times. I left him a few weeks ago and it was not a very nice separation ,but it had been a long time coming as he was becoming abusive physically and emotionally. I would often wake up after a night [...]
If I Am Diagnosed With Bipolar Will I Be On Medication For Life? This was the main question I had yet never dared ask. I was afraid of the outcome. I made it clear at the very first appointment I had with my community psychiatric nurse when we spoke about trust, as I struggle to trust people. While he [...]
“Silver Linings Playbook” a fictional movie about the impact of mental illness on on a former teacher is nominated for eight Oscars. From the reviews I have read I suspect this is a very good movie and plan on seeing it soon. Many of those who actually suffer with mental illnesses that have seen it [...]
I watched an interesting Twitter conversation this evening, when a community mental health nurse suggested mental health workers should promote a smoke free environment around their clients. Nurse With Glasses who wrote the 20 Commandments for Mental Health workers and a lady I admire. I often read her tweets and this one caught my eye. Should Mental Health [...]
I didn’t realise the impact that my childhood was going to have on me. Being abandoned by my mother three times throughout my childhood. I was neglected by my father who was an alcoholic and a gambling man. I still love him very much as he didn’t abandon me when my mother did,even though my father was to make [...]
Emma contacted me on Twitter and asked if I would tweet out a link to the video she has made to raise awareness of mental health. I thought I would go one better and write a blog post for her. Emma only a young girl yet one who has had to grow up fast, bravely [...]
Inevitably I have to begin roughly at the start. I was imprisoned inside four walls, it was an incarceration of my own making as I didn’t understand what was happening to me so I thought if I keep myself away I would be safe. I was wrong. The more I tried to separate myself from [...]
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