I’m so tired and worn out, I just need to off load. I wanna scream. I’ve had my ex here staying for a bit for our little girls birthday. We have been talking and getting along until last night.
I went to bed and was just nodding off to sleep when I heard him creeping in my room.
I pretended to be asleep as wanted to know what he was doing.
He lay down on the bed, grabbed my hand and placed it on his privates and started rubbing. I totally froze I couldn’t speak and wanted to know just how far he would go.
He then put his hand down my pants and you can guess the rest. I wanted to scream at this point but my little one was sleeping in the next room.
Then he took my pants off and started trying to stick it in, all this time he believed I was sleeping.
I opened my eyes and asked him what the hell he thought he was doing to which he said “you started this”
I told him to get off , to stop but he carried on till he was finished.
I don’t know how to feel. I feel torn apart, heartbroken like I’ve never knew this man, he’s casually just acting like nothings happened but he must feel guilty as keeps asking if I’m OK.
I just don’t know what to do. I phoned police to make a statement but I don’t feel strong enough to go through with it.
I was raped and battered at 16 and this has brought bk terrible memories. I just want to scream and cry.
I feel totaly numb. Its made me sick I can’t even look at this man. I feel I don’t even know him any more, he knows what happend to me when I was younger which makes it worse.
I just want to believe this aint happening and it all to stop.
I can’t get the morning after pill asI can’t get anywhere for the snow, there’s no clinics near by to me and I don’t get payed till Monday and its about 30 quid in chemists.
I really just don’t know what to do.
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Yes hunni, you need to go to the police! The fact he thought you was asleep is even more worrying please get him out of your house and seek help! Hugs xx
Get him out of your house asap.. do u have a friend or family member to support u while u make a statement? This is seriously worrying, he needs to be far away you! Huge hugs xxx
I would go police hun don’t keep it to ur self
Please be strong and go to the police you will get lots of support off them and I am sure they will help with emergency contraception you must stop him now if he thinks he got away with it last night what is to stop him doing it again huge hugs be strong babe xxx
Go to the police hunni x x
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Do you have someone close to you that can help, maybe someone who can have the little one for a few hours. If you do not feel strong enough to speak to the police, do you have a local SARC (Sexual Abuse and Rape Centre) google a local one to you. See if they have a helpline, they are confidential and very supportive and will also help with the medical aspect of pills etc! You need to get him out of the house safely, your safety and the safety of your little one is paramount. The SARC can also help you through the police statement and are exceptionally supportive and will understand your confusion and mixed emotions. This is not your fault, please do try and seek help!
Oh Sweetheart, you need to go and see the police…please xxx
Hunny police ASAP
big hugs x
Awww hope your ok <3 you need to go to police an get him out your house for yours an your kiddies sakes an also im sure they will also be able to help with contraception xxxx big hugs xxxx
Ring the police. This is rape. How dare he!! How dare he touch you. I’m actually sitting here and my blood is boiling!!!!! You let him into your home!! Your home for the sake of your daughter and he repays you by raping you!!!!!!!
You can go through with this. Because if you don’t, then he will get away with it. And he will do it again. You did not start this. Why is it men seem to believe we are the ones that make them do this is beyond me. You never asked for any of this.
The police will have a doctor that will sort out emergency contraception.
Hurry up and call them now…
Massive hugs xxxxx
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Hun go to the police and get him out of your house asap. If you don’t report it he gets away with it and will most likely do it again. Have you got any one to support you whilst you go through it?
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Hi, this happened to me while I was with my ex-husband and it truly is an awful experience. I debated whether to go to the police and did after a month. I look back and wish I had gone straight away. If you contact a sexual assault referral centre they can take all the evidence and hold it until you feel strong enough to make a decision. I know you must be feeling so frozen and numb, but know that you are stronger than you realise. Much love xxx
Omg hun you need to go to police and no way is tour faukt saying you started it how dare he…you were asleep. .or so he believed which makes this even worse..get him out your house now dor the sake of you and yiur daughter..and please go through with reporting him. .big hugs hun xx
Ring the police. They will help you get rid of him, get you some one to talk to and may all so be able to help with the morning after pill
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Is there anyone close by who can help Hun? Please ring the police as u never know if he’s gonna do it again! And get him out of your house x
Hun you need to go to the police xx
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You did the right thing ringing the police, please please please follow it though and get this man away from you and out of your life! If he can do it then he can do it again :’( Also as for the morning after pill the police would be able to help with that as they would get a doctor involved (at your consent) who would be able to prescribe to you but that needs to be done within 72 hours of it happening huni. Sorry you had to go through all of that at 16 too, such a shame. Nobody deserves that. Evil people out there! I hope you get all the help and support you need and remember you are never alone xx
the same thing happened to me the first time i was raped. (the first of many times to come) i really hope you are ok and that you did go to the police. or he will think he can do it again and again and not just to you. hugs xx
Big hugs for starters hun. I’d follow though with ur police statement sweetie. And tell him to leave and tell him straight you will never sleep at my house again. Lots of love xxx
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I hope u reported him hun so many men get away with such awful crimes because we are to scared to report it but u could save another woman from going through what he did to u big hugs hun xxx
I hope u made the correct choice Hun xx
Follow it thru with the police hun xx i know how scary it is cos ive been there xx be strong animals like them dont deserve to get away with it xx
Aww Hun, huge hugs, I hope u go to the police… He shouldn’t get away with it ands should have had to endure that… <3