Self-loathing has always surrounded my negative life, the problem is that I am the only person that can make any positive changes in it; but I have allowed myself to become so consumed by self-loathing that I have found myself stuck in a deep dark hole.
I beat myself up over minor tasks and I detest the way I allow negative thoughts to drive me to believe I am useless. I have begun to make positive changes and although I am taking small steps each day I have found that positive thinking is a great tool to learn.
It is a slow and somewhat frustrating learning curve as I do become angry with myself that I am the one to blame for the way I perceive myself, others see many positives, I am desperately trying to see them too. But I am trying and that is what is making all the difference, finally accepting that I am in charge or my life and only I can decide how I choose to see it.
Depression and a lifetime of being a mental health patient has made me rather selfish, consumed with my own self-loathing and believing everything in my life is so bad, I have excluded so many people and achievements.
I am my own worst enemy, I put myself down and find it extremely difficult to accept compliments, when if someone were to tell me how well I had done something, I would be thinking I could have done better. This negative thinking pattern has led to me leading a lonely and sad life. I am now challenging these negative thoughts and looking for the trust behind them, there never is any truth only my distorted thoughts.
I have to learn to love and accept myself before I can expect others too
The challenges and mental health illnesses I have faced in my life have forced me to feel shame and being ashamed of myself is something I have always felt. I do not know why. I have always feared rejection from others and my low self-confidence has allowed the self-loathing to become gradually worse, to the point it fills my everyday rational thoughts and beliefs.
I am bipolar or I am depressed is never an excuse to hate yourself, I should be proud of all I have achieved and I do not have a doom and gloom future ahead of me, if you want to achieve your dreams then you have to go out there and fight for them and fighting my own self-loathing problems is on the top of my self-empowerment list.
I have so much I want to do with my life and the only thing holding me back is me. I am wasting so much of my time and energy focusing on all the negatives in my life I am making myself unhappy.
I am going to tackle my self-loathing problem because I am a lost shining little star who seems to have lost her sparkle and I can feel it wanting to shine though. Thanks to the power of positive thinking I am going to fight and win my battle.
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You really are going to win. You are not alone in feeling like this, I am a mum of two who feels the same. I have realised that the only person who can actually help me, is myself. It will be a long journey and it will not be easy, but it will be worth it.
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this sounds just like my mum reading this, she puts herself down do much and even a small achievement she makes she puts herself down. Small steps are the ones that count as slowly you can build them up …and one day you will. and when you get to that one day, you will look back and can say to yourself that it was you and only you that got you so far =) x
im just like this, always putting myself down. my manager at work comments on how i can never take a compliment, maybe it was my parents own fault through never praising me for the good, only concentrating on what i did bad.. positive comments make me feel really embarressed. keep going hun
it will get better xxx
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just wanted to send hugs and say you can do it
Hugs hunni you can do it
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You can do it
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you can do it <3
You can do this! x
huge hugs sweet, you can do this, youre an amazing person xx
You can do it hun, you are an inspiration to us all and we can all (especially me) learn a lot from u xxx
It sounds as if you are suffering from low self esteem. Usually there is a view of the self which see’s the self as worthless, not good enough or useless. Someone who feels this way will particularly feel this way when criticized by someone or perceives rejection from someone. It can be described as shame about who you are as a person. Then when you are made to feel worthless the critical voice comes in and tells you that you are worthless or useless. The preceding criticism /rejection was hurtful, painful enough but then you criticize yourself which doubles the emotional pain. Self criticism is poisonous to your psychological health, its impossible to have good self esteem if you treat yourself in that way. One tip is to ignore and fight the critical voice in your head (the bully) and keep fighting it over time. It will weaken. Put in place a more compassionate voices instead which is compassionate, emotionally supportive and forgiving. If you do this often enough and long enough it will change.
keep your head up hun you can do it .. sending big hugs x
big hugs hunni, u can do it just keep that head held high <3 xx