It was 3 weeks before my 18th birthday and my little girl 1st birthday. I was taken off my antidepressants that had been treating the depression I had suffered from. I started to feel really unwell. My 1st thoughts were that I was pregnant. I took 2 tests and staring at the positive lines. I was scared that depression would come back. How would I cope?
Having an abortion never crossed my mind at all. Going through my pregnancy was difficult; I was always sick and couldn’t accept the baby growing in me. At 22 weeks I was took to hospital and placed on a drip as I was very dehydrated. The following day I was allowed home. I had constant pains. Approaching 30 weeks it was growing on me that I was going to become a mum again and I was quite excited. At 37+6 weeks when I was in Asda with my mum I felt sharp pains.
Then I felt a gush, I started to panic. I rushed to the hospital to find out the baby’s heartbeat was dipping and my pulse and heart rate was so high. And I was 3cm dilated.
I was placed on a drip to see if that would help and I was shaking with fear. I heard 2 doctors saying it hadn’t worked and the needed to do something. I was then taken to the delivery suite where my waters broke. I wasn’t ready to be a mum yet.
An hour in I heard them talking about a C-section, I couldn’t deal with all this it was happening so quick. Three hours 25 minutes later a small 6lb 12oz baby was placed it my arms. She was okay I felt love instantly.
The 1st few days were so hard. She’s now 19 months and has a 3 year old little sister and I couldn’t be more happy that I learnt to love her.
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Thank you to whoever wrote this blog post! .. im currently 23+4 with my 2nd and i am terrified of getting pnd again. I had it terribly with my first little boy. And he is only almost 15 months, im fine now, off anti d’s and my bond with him is amazing. But it terrifies me the thought of feeling that way again. Youve given me hope that just because i had it once doesnt mean im destined to get it again this time!
Good for you. I am very happy for you and your family that you managed to fight through it. You are a strong person.
Its ok to be scared thats what makes us human. xx
glad you managed to fight through it, your very strong
big hugs x
I was the same I felt scared when I was pregnant the 2nd time too..well done for sharing and all the best for the future xx
well done to you for staying strong. i had depression after my first and was scared stiff of it coming back. well done for fighting it =) xx
Awww such a lovely post. And big well done to eing so strong hun it couldnt have been easy. Enjoy your beautiful babies xxx
I was the same, worried it would come back when I was pregnant with my second! well done! Keep strong x
glad you manage to get through it hunny your very strong xxx
glad you managed to fight it must of been hard xx
Aww that’s lovely Hun, everyone gets scared at some point even those who are afraid to admit it x
it’s ok to be scared but when your fear stops you doing some thing then you need to act