My name is Morgan. I loved life, growing up in a Christian home, everything was so great. I had two older brothers and older sister, a younger brother as well as loving parents. But I also have a dark, dark secret.
I was eleven years old the first time. I remember it well, too well in fact. I was in the backseat of my dad’s car on a Saturday morning. He dropped off my brother at a friend’s house. I just tagged along with dad because I had nothing better to do. Sometimes he would stop at a hardware store or something and I would hopefully be allowed to buy some candy in the checkout isle. Sure enough, we stopped at the gas station, he gave me a dollar and I ran inside and bought some Mentos.
I sat in the backseat again, because sometimes dad rubs my leg when I sit up front. I don’t really like it and today I am wearing shorts, so it would make it a little worse. Dad doesn’t say anything as he hops in.
Leaving the gas station I notice we weren’t headed straight home. I ask dad where we were going. “On a little tour,” he says, “why don’t you come sit up front with me?” I didn’t really want to, but I didn’t want to upset him. I climbed over the seat, dad awkwardly helping me as he put his hand on my butt. I hate it when he touches me there, but I don’t say anything because he is my dad.
As soon as I am seated dad’s hand is on my bare leg. I immediately start regretting my decision to even go along today. Dad has been having wandering hands lately. But I was hoping for some candy, mom never lets me have any since I have braces. Dad gives in all the time, so why not go with him.
Dad drives out into the country, further and further from our house. His hand is stroking my leg the whole time. My heart is beating faster. I am nervous with the way dad is acting today. He is very quiet, not saying anything at all. I wish I was home!
“Where are we going dad?” I ask almost upset with him for not saying anything. “Just for a little ride, that’s all, why don’t you lean closer to me so I can rub your back Sweetie?”
I do as I’m told, looking down at my Mentos, almost half gone already. “You have such a bony back don’t you,” dad says as I just nod my head as I feel his hand go underneath my shirt.
This is new; dad never gave me a back rub that I remember. His hand begins rubbing more than my back; he is rubbing my neck, and even my stomach.
Something is not right
Something is not right
Why are we going away from the house? I feel dad’s hand inching down the front of my shorts. I want to yell, “Stop dad!” I cannot say anything, I am afraid he will get mad.
Before I know it he is rubbing me in my underwear.
I stare out the window, straight to my right. I want him to stop, but he doesn’t. I am about ready to cry, but I don’t want to cry. Why is he doing this to me?
“Doesn’t that feel good Sweetie?” He asks me in a very pleasant voice, here is my chance, I think to myself.
“No dad, I don’t like it,” I say, almost choking back tears.
All of a sudden he removes his hand, the car is slowing down, yup, we are stopping for some reason. “Why don’t you get out and walk home then, Morgan!” Dad says, furious with me. “No I am not walking, it’s too far dad,” I plead. “Then you shut up, and enjoy what dad is doing!”
I don’t say a word, as dad starts driving again, his hand going right back where it was, inside my shorts.”
I am sorry; I cannot go any further with my story. It’s just too overwhelming for me at this time. I hope you understand. Thanks, Morgan
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Your so brave Morgan to even go that far telling your story…. That is a big step for you… You need to talk to a proffesional and get some help…. Really wish there was more i could do to help you…. its heartbreaking….
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Sweetheart you need to speak to a teacher or trusted adult about this, what your dad is doing is wrong. You will have so much support behind you just within this blog post. I really hope now that you have spoken about it once your find the courage to sought out a adult too tell
All my love. xxx
Hi honey.
What your dad is doing is wrong, very wrong. And you have got to speak out about it. You need to tell an adult who you can trust; like a teacher in school. He has no right to do what he is doing to you. It’s wrong and it’s illegal. And this is not your fault. He is an adult.
sweet heart PLEASE tell someone, ur mum, a friend, a teacher. ANYONE ! this is wrong and not how a dad should be, or if u feel u cant please email emma again with contact details and we can do it for you. you are worth more than this. dont let him get away with it xxx
So brave to share your story Morgan.
Find someone you trust and please tell them. Or if you can’t find the words just show them this blog post xxx
hunni, u have taken the first step in emailing Emma that was very brave of u , if u find it hard to talk then wright wat u have written on some paper and give it to a teacher or an adult u truely trust, non of this is ur fault at all big hugs, plz reply to Emma, stay strong xx
Please please tell someone your mum, grandparent a teacher at school just want to give you a big hug non of this is your fault xx
Hello Morgan hunni how very brave of you to write this <3 I do hope you see our comments you need to tell someone Hun and if you don't feel you can tell us who you are and were you are and we will all help as much as we can be strong hunni x x
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Aww hun hope ur okay, message me if u need to. Have u spoke to anyone else about this? Massive hugs to u xx
I’m so sorry to read what your dad has done to you. Well done for trying to write about it.
Shows what a sick world we live in. I hope this isn’t still going on hunni and if so that you can seek some help and guidance, this certainly isn’t normal for a daddy to do so. Big Hugs darling xx
Please tell someone sweetie , I no its hard to tell people you trust for fear of them not believing you , but people will listen ! He is an adult and your dad of all people , he should not abuse you in any way !, please just talk to someone xxx
sweetie you need to find someone you can trust and tell that what is goin on i know what you are going through and how scary it can be but it must stop. you need to tell someone you have us and the group for any support you may need xxxxx
Omg, please talk to someone, what your dad is doing is wrong.
This is no way your fault …. Please tell some one
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Massive hugs for telling your sorry this far hunni, but you need to tell someone. It was a major first step in teeling emma, now tell your mum or someone close to you, please hunni x x
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Morgan you are so brave for sharing your story with us… it is a very big step to take. You really need to tell someone about this a teacher, a family member. You shouldn’t have to go through this alone. If you don’t feel you can speak to anyone about it, maybe forward this part of your story to a teacher who can help you. This is not your fault, you are not in any sort of trouble. Please get help huni. Big hugs to you and don’t go alone with your father xxxx
massive hugs hun and well done for wrighting as much as you have but please please speak to someone you can trust and tell them whats been going on! xxx
Morgan sweetheart you are so brave now you need to make sure this awful man is stopped speak to some who you trust to help you non of this is your fault big hugs xxxxx
Oh hun. Listen first things first…..whatever he says or makes you feel he is in the wrong. It is NOT your fault. You are also not alone. It happens to a lot believe it or not. You need to tell someone….maybe your mum, if not then a friends parents. Someone you can trust. Even tell a teacher if that’s the easiest. Just tell someone please. Massive hugsxxxxxxx if you need to talk email me if not the send Emma a msg just tell someone and we will all try to help you xxxx
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Tell somebody you can trust. Go to your doctor and tell them?
You want him to stop then you got to stop him.
Xxx
well done for getting this far in telling someone sweetheart it must be so hard for you. Is there anyone you can tell a teacher, your doctor or one of your friends parents. Please tell someone xxxx
oh hunni u r ever so brave to even go as far as u have gone now and to speak out on a blog takes so much courage im so proud of u ,, firstly i want u to know from a personal experiance i no how scared u must be send u lots love and hugs i want u to no u have so much support from all us here and u really must speak out to make this stop,, is there not no one u can tell pls no one will blame u this is not ur fault at all and everyone is on ur side u need to make this stop hun for urself u cant keep going through this pls tell someone close to u who can help this stop dad or not u cant protect him when hes doing things like this i know how hard it is to speak out but u have all ready made the biggest move speaking on here ur really brave and alot tougher than u think lovely pls speak out and make this stop thinking of u sendin hugs xxx
Awww hun I am so sorry, you shouldn’t have to go through this and you have done the right thing in telling Emma. You have been so brave, take a little more of that courage and speak to someone you can trust, tell them what is going on with you, you shouldn’t have to suffer in silence. Please speak out. Thinking of you Morgan xx
Sweetie, this is no way your fault. What your dad is doing is wrong. Please try an speak to someone about this, a teacher, doctor, or another family member.
You are a lot stronger than you imagine, just by speaking out to Emma.
Big hugs hunnie xx
oh hun i hope you are ok! you started down the track of opening up hope you manage to open up more to us or who ever x
Oh huni
Morgan you are so so brave speaking out! Contacting Emma was possibly one of the best things you could do! We must assure you, what your dad is doing is not right at all, no dad, in fact no man at all, has the right to do that to you at all. You need to speak out to somebody, your mum, a teacher if you’re still at school, anybody that you trust. Believe us, you will not get into trouble, you are not doing anything wrong by speaking up. Please contact Emma when you can, when it’s safe for you. You have shown Sinai much bravery and courage in speaking out! Please stay safe sweetie, please take our words into mind xxx
So sorry you went through this, you need to talk to someone though x
O hunni
big hugs to you..u must tell someone this is very wrong, no man should ever do that to you let alone your dad..no matter what he says speak out, if he threatens you to keep quiet he is only doing so to make u scared..well done for writing this it means u are strong and a first step to telling someone so they are able to do something about it.. xxx
Update – I have emailed again and still awaiting reply….I will be waiting and will be ready to help the moment she gives me the go ahead
This story brought tears to my eyes and some memorys back from when I was abused by my mums ex boyfriend always remember hun that you are not alone and that there is always someone there for you to talk to emma is a brill support for people who need her. Huge hugs xxxx
Hun you need to talk to someone about this! Reading this nearly had me in tears .. if you haven’t got anyone to talk to you know Emma will talk to you and the group if you need us =[ sorry you had to go through that x
Morgan huni you are so brave. I know what it takes to open up, I have been thru it, ok not my own dad but a trusted family friend and I was only 13. I know those feelings you have and what you are going thru. It took me 23 years to speak out and I am so glad I did coz its stopped it happening to anyone else. I am worried about you huni, please inbox me if you can and I can be there for you. Loads of love sweetie xxxx
Huge hugs x
Thanks everyone! I am okay now. That all happened when I was 11-13. It doesn’t happen anymore. Sorry about the misunderstanding, but I am in college now. Thanks for the nice things you said.
Awww bless you hun! glad your OK now & got away from that! Good luck with college! hugssss xx