I had missed a period, was feeling sick all the time and exhausted, but, I would not believe I was pregnant! I was 18 single living at home with a part time job and spent all my money on drink and fags, pregnant not me.
The nurse looked at the test and smiled at me “Someone in there is waving hello!” I burst in to tears and her face hit the floor. “Not planned then! Do you want to keep the test?” I walked out without saying a word. I told my mum and she went CRAZY she had my brother at 16 and had always said, don’t get pregnant young. I told her calmly, I can’t keep it, I have nothing to offer a baby I’m going to have a termination.
I Don’t Regret My Abortion
Its sounds easy when I put it like that, but I cried a river and went through all the other options, if I stayed pregnant I would be a single mum living in this dump of a town with nothing to offer the child. I couldn’t carry a baby for nine months and give it away so this was the only option I had left.
At the scan the midwife asked me if I wanted to see my baby, I said no, what was the point it would just cause me more pain. “It’s the only time you will see it alive!” she snarled at me, I looked. Another break in my heart.
Two days later I arrived for my medical termination, I had a pill put behind my cervix which caused me to dilate and effectively have a miscarriage. It was painful I felt sick, I vomited, I hyperventilated, I had a panic attack I pushed and I knew it was over. Don’t look my mum said, but I did.
A few weeks later I went on a blind date, 9 years on I am married to my blind date and have two amazing children I adore. I don’t regret my abortion; What I regret is getting pregnant in the first place and putting myself in such a stupid position. My life wouldn’t be what it is now if I had continued with my pregnancy.
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well done for making such a hard decision at such a young age x x x
u did wat was the best thing 4 u hunni , it was very brave thing to do at the age u was n u r very brave to share ur story , massive hugs xxx
It must be so hard to make this decision at any age !! Well done for staying strong and sharing your story x
you did what was best for you at that time, not regretting it is better then having it done and spending a life time living with the regret because u made the wrong decision what the woman said when u had the scan is disgusting and if she feels the way she obviously does she should not of been in the job she did x
Thank you for your support, I swore I would slap her if I ever saw her again she made my choice that much harder, and I agree she was in the wrong job completely. x
What a horrible midwife\nurse. When I had mine she wouldn’t let me see the screen or have any scan pictures =( like you I don’t regret it but do regret getting myself in that situation. X
Big hugs hunni you did what was right for you
hugs hun, you did what was right for you xx
Well done for sharing your story such a brave decision x
hard decision at the time hun, hugs x
big hugs hun you did what was right for you at the time but must have been so hard for you xx
It couldnt have been an easy decision hun, but you did what you needed to and what felt right. The way that midwife spoke to you totally disgusting and wrong. I would have floored the cowbag!! How dare she have the cheek to say that, tbh I didnt think they could. Well done on shareing your story xx
Sounds like u did it for the best Hun… Glad u found happiness and have 2 children xxx