I Was 6 When My Step Dad Raped Me; An Horrific Guest Post

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I Was 6 When My Step Dad Raped Me; An Horrific Guest Post

My mom was at work the night my dad raped me, well I shouldn’t say my dad as he’s my step-dad. My sister and brothers were sleeping, I was sleeping too. My step-dad was the only one that was awake, he came into my room, he asked me if I wanted him to read me a bed time story I said “no daddy I want to sleep please”. He never left, he then asked me if I wanted to play husband and wife, I said yes because I thought it was dolly house or so.

He demand I take off my clothes , so I did as he said not knowing what husband and wife was all about, as I said I thought it was playing with dolls and so on. He left my room for a couple of minutes then he came back with my sister, some duct tape, and a knife.

My sister was only 7 turning 8, this is what I said to my sister “Yea Melinda you’re going to play dolly house too”. She did not seem to be happy about it. She then told me that it’s not what I thought it was. I didn’t understand what she meant by that.

My dad came towards me and put duct tape on my mouth, he said “darling don’t say a word ok everything  will be just fine, don’t cry or anything it will hurt at first but you will get used to it ok. Don’t tell anyone about this, don’t tell anyone,  I will buy you a new dolly if you don’t tell anyone. I said “yes daddy I won’t tell anyone I promise” daddy I love you very much”

I don’t know why I was saying that,  I guess I was just being a good girl. He told me to lie down on the bed, I did as he said, he put his disgusting thing inside of me and started to do it really hard, I started to cry.

in my mind I was saying “Daddy please just please stop, I can’t take it anymore please just stop it hurts badly”

He looked over to Melinda and said “darling your next, don’t even think about leaving this room you hear me”. Melinda started to cry, and then she left and went into her room put the lock on the door and stayed in there pretending to sleep”.

Blood started to come out of me, he did not stop, he took off the tape covering my mouth, I started to scream.  I cried “daddy please listen to me, stop please just stop it hurting” I then bite him on his arm, he slapped me across my face and yelled at meme “shhhhh darling it will soon be over just a few more minutes, please stop crying I know it hurts”

The time came that he stopped,  he came off of me and went to my sisters room but she was very lucky cause her door was locked and he didn’t have the key, my mom had the room keys. He then took me in the shower telling me not to tell anyone.

Blood was draining down my leg, he cleaned it all up, he changed the sheets on my bed. I went back to my bed and tried to sleep,  it was hard not to think about what my step-dad  had just done to me, it was like a night mare.

I am now 16. I don’t live with my step dad or my mom anymore. I hate them to death. I wish he could die right now for all the things he put me through. He took away everything from me. I told my mom but she didn’t believe me so right now I just hate her.

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By The Real Supermum on July 16, 2012 · Posted in Abuse, Breaking Taboo, Sexual Abuse

15 Comments | Post Comment

anouska says:

Your very brave for telling us hun, big hugs xx

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Kate Foley says:

Very brave for telling us your story it’s so sad you mum doesn’t believe u :( did your sister not speak out? Huge hugs hun xx

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Rach says:

Cery brave for telling ur story

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Mummy_LaLa says:

big hugs hunni, so brave telling ur story xx

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Vicky says:

OMG hun, word fail me as to how some one can be so evil. I was sexually abused but not that far but it could of happened as the other girl he did rape. I spoke out to help that girl and hes now been charged with 3 counts of abuse 1 of rape. You have done a very brave thing speakin to us hun well done xxxxx

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Elaine Livingstone says:

I hope that by breaking your silence and telling us, than you now muster the strength to go and tell the authorities. My heart bleeds for you and I cannot begin to imagine the damage this has done both physically and mentally. Just remember you have done nothing wrong, you did not invite this and no adult has the right to be so evil, despite what he may have told you. (((hugs))).

Posted on July 16th, 2012

Shan.C says:

what a horrific ordeal you have been put through, i hope you find happiness in your life x

Posted on July 17th, 2012

kayleigh summers says:

Youve been through so much! it must have been so difficult for you :( .. my heart breaks but thank you for sharing your story and your very very brave xxx

Posted on July 17th, 2012

Jade Tynan says:

Firstly you are such an amazing person for opening up! It must have taken courage and caused heartache to write this and put it on the blog. Big hugs to you hun xx

Posted on July 17th, 2012

Bam says:

Thankyou for sharing this with us – It shows how easy it is for a child to be abused and the mind games abusers like to use against them – im sorry you had to go through this. Big hugs xx

Posted on July 17th, 2012

sarah r says:

I’m so sorry for what that monster did to you, and that your “mum” chose to believe him over you. I hope one day he gets justice.

Posted on July 17th, 2012

Jade T says:

Aw hun, I’m sat here crying at this =[ I’m sorry you had to go through that and I’m sorry you had no one to talk to and your ‘mother’ doesn’t believe you. You are an incredible young lady who has shared her story to help others. Thank you x

Posted on July 17th, 2012

Frankie @ Plumbers Islington says:

I am so sorry for what he did to you. It is disgusting that people can do things like that and get away with it. You are so brave speaking up, and shame on your mother for not believing you! Hopefully, one day she will find out the truth but don’t blame your sister for not speaking up — we cannot always be as brave as you have been :) Hope things work out. xx

Posted on July 18th, 2012

al says:

life needs to be alot stricter 3 counts abuse like come on if i was juge i would of done 3 count rape but that just me and im glad u are also pulling threw

Posted on September 26th, 2012

Sam says:

I was pleased to read your post.

Firstly if anyone ever touched my child they would be dead. Not in negotiation about silence money. Secondly, these paedophiles select vulnerable children perhaps from families to whom that kind of money would be enormous help. It is sick and wrong to accept money to keep quiet about what a monster like that has done to your child.

I recently found out that my biological father is a paedophile who abused my sister when she was 3 or 4 years old.

As soon as I found out I drove as fast as I could to his house. Questioned him and following his blatant denial I attacked him badly and the police were called. I don’t know if I was raped or molested because I have no memory of that. However having no memory I understand doesn’t necessarily mean abuse did not take place.

My sister remembers clearly and has never shared this information in 30 years until now. A sick disgusting paedophile who was supposed to be her parent left her to live a life of fear. Because he wanted to have sex with a child. What is essentially a baby. She was 3 years old.

As I recall our childhood things begin to add up. The fact that she was so withdrawn. Never happy. Never wanted to play. Because he used to go into her room and rape her. Because he wanted to. Because it is a choice. Paedophiles have a choice. Just as adults choose not to rape each other. Paedophiles who abuse, choose that action and as I have learned, most neither care nor admit any wrong doing.

This for me has ruined my life not to mention my sister who was actually raped. I have a child who would have been around this man and although I have established that my son has not been abused. I will always live with the guilt that this man has been around my child.

I think this is a subject that needs to be aired again and again until there is so much awareness that these paedophiles find it impossible to prey on children.

To give a child a voice and confidence is the most powerful tool there is. Let children speak up and allow them the security to say ‘this happened to me, this isn’t correct, can you help me’.

30 years ago my sister and I were ‘seen and not heard’. That’s why this paedophile got away with it until 3 weeks ago when my gut instinct figured him out. I am 8 months pregnant with a girl. He may have been around that girl. Maybe my instinct was to protect this little girl. I only wish I had that instinct when pregnant with my son. Although I
am confident after speaking with specialists that my son has not been abused. As I said before that guilt will probably never leave me.

I will probably never look at the world the same again. It’s not that man lurking in the park who abuses children. It’s normally someone they know. And as I type that the words absolutely chill me.

No one wants to talk about paedophiles. But we need to. If we don’t protect our children, who else will?

My mother never paid enough attention to protect us. So her children were raped and abused while she was in the house.

I have zero pity for these animals. If I could personally shoot every one of them through the head it would be my finest hour.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read my post.

Posted on December 20th, 2012