A mothers love. Nothing compares to it. Mothers love you unconditionally, guide you and support you. I think my mum 
missed those classes.
My mum gave me a childhood of abuse, a childhood watching her boyfriends come and go, a childhood listening to Jennifer Rush singing The Power Of Love every time she was dumped.
I hated that song and still do. A childhood full of painful memories, my head being smashed against the cooker, the marks from the belt that didnt fade for days.
Having my bedroom stripped of everything down to the mattress and even the light bulb was taken. Having to earn my clothes back by doing chores.
As I grew so did my hatred for that house. Turning 16 she hit me. I phoned my dad. He picked me up and I never went back.
Many different things occurred, finally I became a mum at 22. I didnt speak to my mum for seven years. She never met two of my sons. By the time we found some common ground we had both changed. She has a diagnosis of copd. I have five kids. It felt different this time. We were close as adults. Talked every day about everything. She came to stay with us for a few days a few times.
She was here when my father in law passed away, offered her support. Then something changed in her, she told me my partner had admitted to affairs with other women to her. I was devestated. He denied it and my mum wouldnt talk about it. Things were frosty for a bit. I was confused. Then last week her mood went sour. She left me a meassage telling me what she thought of me as a mum. I was gutted. Couldnt work it out. I kept a dignified silence.
Then a few nights ago I witnessed her attacking my two sisters. We had all forgotten something and a status had been put up about it on my brothers status on Facebook. I was furious. It was bullying and my sisters didnt deserve it. I jumped in. My mum was frantic with rage. Told me I was a traitor. Told me I wasent part of her family or worthy to carry her surname.
She told me I should never have been born and she only had sons. How my brother abusing me when I was younger was my fault. I ruined his life and hers. How my kids deserved a better mum. How one day they would see the failure I was. I cried. I cried more. I still do now. She has cut me off, said terrible things, hurt my kids, ripped my family apart but still refuses to tell me why.
I miss her. I wonder. I dont sleep for all those things bouncing around in my head. Your meant to love your children reguardless, but I guess that doesnt mean you have to want them.
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About The Real Supermum
Not sure what to say hun, but you are so strong .. to go through all that and build up a new relationship with your mother. It’s just a shame how it’s ended I hope you get your answers hun x
Big hugs hun, some mothers don’t deserve the title, big hugs hun xx
I hope u get some answers from her
no1 should be treat like that let aloe by there mother she doesn’t deserve to have u as a daughter! Huge hugs xx
Big hugs chick xxx
You are so strong and deserve so much better than that!! Your children have a brilliant mummy dont let her tell you other wise. your mum does not deserve you. As for the abuse you suffered as a child was in no way your fault. I hope the vile monster is living with the regret of that every day an I hope he rots in hell! Keep your chin up chick xx
you shouldnt get upset about what she has said to you, she sounds deluded and selfish, shes probably bitter and jealous that you have a nice life with your kids unlike the one she provided you with whilst she was too busy thinking of herself xx
dont get upset hun by the sounds of it it is her who missing out and you deserve a hell of a lot better the abuse you suffered from your brother was in no way your own fault and never blame yourself xx
You deserve a life with no abuse. Without a mother like that…not that you can really call her a mother. It must hurt tremendously but I hope you get through it. Xxxx
You are definitely better Off without her! To say those things to you & hurt you & yor family like that is wrong
big hugs to you babe <3
Big hugs hun how can someone be so bloody cruel! Shocking! x
big hugs hun sooo sooo cruel how any one can do tht to there own shes the one missin out not u xx
big hugs hun it sounds like you and ur kids are better off without her
omg how can anyone say that to there own child i don’t no but wow are you not better off without her your kid’s not need a person in there life like that that’s a joke of a human being in my eyes sorry for being harsh but she dosn’t deserve the title mum or grandmother i wish you all the best hun hugs xxx
you are betteroff without her!!! some people dont deserve their kids!
she aint no mother hun big hugs
What a horrible person, sometimes people shouldn’t mothers biggest hugs xxxxx
Awww bless you hun an kind of know how you feel also my mum has dome lots of horrid things to me an across me I havnt spoke to her in 8yrs but she still in that time found ways to hurt us she had supervised access to my older boys az they had a close relationship until they got older my younger if the two would hit him self it was that bad she would put me down something rotten to them in the end they refused to see her I had to support them through this even thoe it riped me in two she iz the most horrible person I hav Eva met az harsh az it sounds I would never see her again or introduce my other children to her or even go to her funeral when she eventually passes I now only see one brother speak to another on fb an one cusin out of my while family she has turned most against me an the rest are az bad az she iz although I do get lonley at times an me an my kids miss out on things every family has but to me its normal i dnt need them an we are quite happy to go it alone
some mothers just don’t dizerve to be mums or even hav kids an ours are one of them its my own kids that keep me going day by every day 
xxxxx
By the sounds of it hun your better of without her! Your a very stong lady (hugs) xx