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Heroin and pregnancy in the same sentence? That has got to be a joke right? I mean we all know the dangers that taking drugs during pregnancy can cause. A rather inspirational mother shares with me her battle against getting clean for the sake of her unborn baby.
Heroin and Pregnancy – Does this make me a bad mother?
Iv always known I wanted to be a mum. I always said I would stop smoking and do everything I could, eat the right
things, take the right pills. I have always been a party girl, loved going out with friends, but drinking soon led to drugs. To start with it was just when I was out and soon it became more and more often.
A friend one day passed a spliff over to me and I smoked it. Without knowing it I was smoking heroin. I smoked more and more spliff’s with them and before I knew it I was smoking heroin with them every day. I still didn’t know what it was and didn’t till almost a year later when I was diagnosed with swine flu. The Swine flu symptoms turned out to be withdrawals from the heroin. I was disgusted with myself but couldn’t stop my addiction. Although I wasn’t enjoying it any more and didn’t feel any pleasure from it, the pain from withdrawals was so bad that I couldn’t stop.
Eventually I took myself down to a local drugs centre and got the help I needed. They gave me pills I could take to stop the pain. I would then be able to wean myself off the pills. Bit by bit. Day by day. I had been putting weight on which I had put down to the fact I was eating more little did I know I was pregnant.
I stopped going to the drug centre and weaned myself off of the tablets. The very next weekend I notice my nipples were leaking. I wasn’t having periods so the thought of being pregnant was the last thing on my mind. Still I took a pregnancy test and within seconds a line appeared in the box. I went to the doctors were he confirmed I was pregnant and at least 6 months gone. I explained that if those dates were right I would have been pregnant before I started my drugs treatment.
I had been smoking heroin and pregnancy was certainly not the ideal time to become a heroin addict. I had to get clean and stay clean and fast.
My baby became my first priority, I wanted to make sure everything was OK. I had extra scans and had to see a special midwife every week were I was drugs tested, I stayed free of heroin and pregnancy gave me a real focus to change my life. Social services where informed. I had already come off my medication and they were happy and closed the case. Two months later I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. 4lb 15 and healthy
As soon as I found out I was pregnant I stopped taking heroin, I will never stop feeling guilty about what I did during those first few months of my pregnancy but my baby came before heroin and I am so glad that I changed my life.
People hear my story and think I am a bad mum. But am I?
About The Real Supermum
Good on you hun! I don’t think you”re a bad mum, as soon as you realized you did everything you could to do best by your son
hats off to you x
How could u be a bad mum? U stopped and got help when u found out u were pregnant u did everything u could to make sure ur child was ok.. ur a strong person hun well done and big hugs xxx
Well done you hunni. you turned your life around for the better you admitted you were wrong, you have done bad things and in all honesty that makes you a bigger person. I have no dobuts you are a birlliant mum to your lo xx
no you got yourself off of the drugs, you had started too before you even knew you were pregnant, if you were a bad mom i highly doubt ss would have closed the case on you x congratulations x
Far from a bad mum Hun from the minute u knew u was pregnant u did everything u coud to protect your baby and that is what any good mummy would do well done fr coming clear xx
i think truth be told your a amazing mum, you did what was needed to keep your baby safe and healthy. that’s all a mum can do
YOU STOPED that is what counts, you didnt keep taking it you didnt put your wants before your baby, you did the best you could, I hope with all my heart and soul that you are still off of it and that you and your baby are doing well xxx
your an amazing mum like jody said you stopped thats what counts xx
not a chance are u a bad mum!! a bad mum would still be on heroin and probably would of have their kids taken off them!! the fact that you did everything to get off the heroin for your baby shows what an amazing mum you are!! stay strong chick xx
you stopped taking drugs when you found out and from then on have done the best by your child that makes you a great mum. my two brothers are in care because there mum was a drug addict she didnt stop when it counted it took her another 13 years and bey then it was to late to get my brothers back. xxx
i think ur a brill mom, u did what you had to to protect your unborn baby so well done to you xx
No way are you a bad mam and u prove it that u stopped taking it when u found out you was preg… A huge well done, be proud of ur self Hun, ur a great mammy xx