I Was Pregnant After Being Raped By 3 Monsters
Well I don’t really know where to start to be honest, I’ve never spoken about it to anyone, but I want people to know that they’re not alone, because I felt so alone before I found Emma’s mums group and blog.
I was 13 and it was late November. I was walking to my boyfriend’s house, it was only a 5 minute walk from mine and it wasn’t late or too dark, just cold. I walked past a snicket and saw some guys in there, I hurried my pace without trying to slip on the ice but I heard their footsteps behind me getting faster and closer.One guy was walking down the street towards me, I crossed the street thinking it was only a few more minutes till I got to his house. I kept walking but I was grabbed from behind, he put his hand over my mouth and pulled my hood over my face so I couldn’t see him.
He dragged me into a snicket and I heard 3 voices, I couldn’t understand what they were saying, they were speaking hushed. I tried biting his hand so I could shout but I couldn’t.
One by one the three of them took advantage of me; the pain was unbearable I can’t begin to explain it.
The last one held a knife to my throat and threatened me, if I ever told anyone they’d come after me again, but they wouldn’t leave me to live next time.
They left and I tugged my clothes back on, it was dark now and near freezing point. I was numb I didn’t know what to do. I went home and text my boyfriend saying I wasn’t well, I said to my mum that he wasn’t well so I came home, I ran myself a bath and tried scrubbing myself clean, I felt so dirty.
The month after my period hadn’t arrived (I started them when I was 10) they were like clockwork; I thought it might have been late because of the stress so I left it. Gradually I started noticing I was feeling ill and had gone off some of my favourite food. I went to boots and bought a pregnancy test. I took it in the toilets and immediately started crying.
I was 13 and pregnant with a monsters baby. I had no idea what to do, I was so scared. I couldn’t tell my mum because they’d come after me again. So I kept it to myself, unsure of what to do when I was showing or what I’d tell people. I never got that far, a couple of weeks later I woke up covered in blood with stomach pains far worse than my normal period pains. It lasted for a week roughly and I passed a lot of clots, and I knew what had happened.
I had lost my baby.
In a way I was grateful, I was 13, could give it no way of life, and I didn’t want it having a father like that. But I think about it every day.
I am 17 now and I have a gorgeous baby girl who’s nearly one. I still have flashbacks but have since moved area but I still get paranoid when I see large groups of males. You are not alone.
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This is so heartbreaking. I’m sorry you’ve gone through this. You are so strong. Thank you for telling your story. I know that it will help someone else through their grieving process.
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How awful hun. you are so brave talking about it after Wat you’ve been through! Big hugs x x
How scary, I hope you told somebody in the end. NEVER be afraid to speak out, there will always be somebody out there who will listen *hugs* xx
Wow what a truley heartbreaking story . You are amazingly strong and still so young I wish I had half the rv courage and strength you possess . I hope that you can close the book eventually and enjoy your little family I wish you all the best for the future and happiness surrounds you xx
Aww hun
Firstly you are so brave and well done for speaking out. Hopefully it will help others to do the same. Hugs hun xxx
Omg hun what an awful time for you:-( so sorry to hear you went throughout it all alone massive hugs and all the best for the future xxx
Such a terrible thing to have to have gone through, such a brave person to go through such an ordeal and never tell anyone. Thank you for sharing, hopefully this will help someone else xx
what a heartbreaking story
you are a brave strong woman for sharing this with us.
I wish you all the love and happiness for the future x
how awful ur such a brave person to tell this story
I have no words to say other than, you are a very brave woman, sharing your story to help others! Huge hugs xxxx
oh hun you really are very brave to share your story. and i know no dna or anything but its never to late to report it xx
You are amazing for writing this showing support to others who have been in a similar situation x
oh hunni u r so brave telling ur story n u r never alone while u have this blog n emmas group, big hugs sweetheart xx
So Heartbreaking :’(
You’re so brave for sharing this story, and also im sorry for your loss.
You’re never alone with emma’s blag and fb group! Many hugs <3
well done you brave lady i hope this will help others
ur so brave to tell this its difficult to get other rape xx hugs xx
there are no words that fit here are there.. just big hugs. Your very very brave x
evil evil people very brave to share this bless you sweetheart xx
Aaaa those evil things….bigs hugs sweetheart xxxxx
o hun im so sorry to hear what happened to you, big hugs xx