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Forced Into Abortion Has Lasting Effects
In March 2005 I found out I was pregnant. From the moment those 2 lines appeared, my world came crashing down. I had just turned 20, had a full time job and a boyfriend of one year, we lived together and I thought my life was good. I took the pregnancy test as my boyfriend kept going on about taking one, I thought he was being silly seeing as I never had symptoms not even a missed period.
Once I took 3 tests, all confirming my pregnancy I finally plucked up the courage to phone my boyfriend. His silence said it all.
He told me he didn’t want a child, it was in my best interest to ‘get rid’, It was either the baby or him.
It finally sank in I was pregnant, I didn’t want to kill the baby because he said too, but I didn’t want to bring a child up alone either.
Doctors referred me to the abortion clinic, he came with me, I had a scan and I saw the baby. I was 8 weeks pregnant. I was booked in 2 days later for the procedure, those 48 hours were awful. I cried, I screamed I even begged, but he said you’ve got to do it.
The 6th April 2005 I went to the clinic, I went to the toilets and sent frantic texts to my boyfriend begging him to let me come out. Finally I was called, it was my turn.
After it was all over I woke in hysterics, I stayed for a little while then was sent home.
We broke up shortly after.
Every single day since then, I have never stopped thinking about that baby. Every November around the EDD, I always feel sad.
I suffered with severe depression after that day, I’ve attempted suicide 3 times, I took drugs, drank myself silly.
Then I met a new partner , he changed it all, although we aren’t together no more, we have a gorgeous daughter. She is my world. I still suffer with depression and had PND after she was born, but things do get better.
I never spoke to anyone about how I felt and I feel that’s what made everything worse. Please talk to someone, before and after…
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I’m glad this lady is strong enough to speak up, it just goes to show that us women cant let a man rule our heads or hearts xxx
You have surely gone through a terrible experience. Your boy friend of the time was only thinking about himselfand ot you and the life that God created in you. It is truly unfortunate that you did not listen to the voice in you fighting against abortion, it was the spirit of God telling you not to abort your baby. He will answer some day for his cruel behavior. Life is precious and so are you and the child that was within you. Make amends with the Lord and piece of heart and mind will be given to you.
Oh honey, what an awful thing to go through. you are so very brave and strong. i hope you manage to overcome the depression, keep fighting cos you can win!! glad to hear you have a little girl now and are happy. best of luck in the future chick xxx
Big hugs hunni… Its.not nice I’ve been through same… Glad you have a lovely daughter x
Hugs xx