Abortion at 18 weeks and I don’t regret it
I heard a plop like sound and the urge not too look down was too strong, there laid splattered in the grey paper is what I can only describe as a hospital’s sick bowl was my baby, born at 18 weeks gestation.
I do not remember feeling anything. I had not lost my baby, I had just had an abortion.
I remember the words clearly “ Continuing the pregnancy would have significant damage on her mental health”. The words my family GP wrote on a form to allow me to have a late termination. I was given internal pessaries that would start my labour, days earlier I had taken pills. I was given a private room and within hours my waters had broken, I too laid broken on the hospital bed. My partner sat next to me the whole time, holding my hand, being the devoted and caring partner standing by my decision. But the fact was it was not my decision. He had taken that choice that away from me.
I had fallen pregnant only five and a half months after giving birth to our first child together.
I had not had unprotected sex, I was sensible, the pregnancy was a surprise. He had already began using our daughter as a weapon against me. Kill this unborn baby or he would kill me and our living daughter, was the choice he gave me. I was tormented, ripped in two. But I knew having another child with this man so soon after our first daughter would be a huge mistake. So I went against everything I believed and aborted my own pregnancy.
Leaving him was not an option, I was too afraid. Instead I allowed him to control me. He would do this for many years to come. I had my abortion 14 years ago now and I do not regret making that decision. I believe I did the right thing.
It saddens me to read others opinions on abortions, we are murders and evil? Let me tell you something, until you have walked in my shoes don’t judge me on my choices, one day you may just find yourself in a situation like mine.
Life is not all black and white.




Big hugs hunni….. I had an abortion few weeks back n gettin crap of ppl n was the best decision i made… I too wasn’t silly i was on.the pill but fell on it…. I hope you got rid of him though hun i went through controlled n violent relationship n it ain’t easy as some ppl think it is to leave x
Big hugs to you hun xx
Hugs to you hun, I feel no one should judge anyone who has had an abortion, everyone has there reasons and it should not be frowned upon by people who have no idea! I hope you got out of that relationship. Big hugs to you hun xxx
You made the decision you felt was best. No one can or should judge you! Thank you for sharing xx
Hugs to u hun, I used to be against abortion but not now, not when u hear the womens reasons and to why she has an abortion, it’s whats best for you at the time ..I believe everything happens for a reason and your very brave for sharing with us, abortion as such a stigma these days but people should no the full story before judging about it, xx
You did what you thought was best hun, but I must admit I am one of those who hates abortions I just don’t like them but you had your reasons as does everyone else. x
I don’t have an opinion on abortion as I’ve never had to put myself through it, you did what you had to and no one can tell you whether you were right or wrong hun x
I have talked to you about it before chick, evil dosent come in to it x
U made the decisions that was right for u at the time x
You did what you thought was best xx
Iv never had a abortion and don’t agree with them but if some1 gave me the choice of me and my child or the unborn baby I would do exactly the same big hugs xx
hugs xx
I can’t imagine what you were going thru. You thought of your own health first which in a way is right as if you didn’t what would happen and how wud it affect u after baby was born. You did wot was best for you hun. Hugs xxxx