I was with my ex partner for ten years, it started happy loved up you know the story. After two years we were joking around and he wanted me to wear a short skirt to bed and I had said “If you want me to wear it that bad, then you wear it” and I threw the skirt at him. He put it on and came to bed in it and we had a good giggle. He then starting to wear it everynight to bed, which didn’t bother me at first then he started wearing my tops, my tights and small amounts of make-up. Slowly over the next 2 years I was having depression problems but he was more interested in himself and “tarting himself up”.
I started to ask “Can you not do it for just 3 nights a week?” but he said he couldn’t as he felt comfy in it. I loved him so stayed and
thought it would get less, oh I was so wrong. It got to the point where I couldn’t invite friends around after 5pm as he was dressed up, sex got to become once a month, some times longer as I was starting to find him unattractive. I found videos of him on the computer of him dressed up in seductive poses. I confronted him and he said he wanted to see wat he looked like, so I dropped it. He told me that he had seen a physicist and said he thought he wanted to be a women but they dismissed it. He asked if I could call him a female name whilst he was dressed up and having sex. I said I couldn’t as I felt uncomfortable and I felt hurt.
We had our first baby boy in 2006 and I honestly thought this would change everything , oh I was so wrong again. We moved to another town and I found out I was pregnant with my daughter in 2008. The sex got worse as the only way he could orgasm was for me to stick one of my fingers up his bum, he couldn’t get an erection with out me doing it either. In other words I didn’t turn him on sexually but he said he still loved me. It got to the point that I wanted to leave but thought “no I have two children this is my life now”
Then I became friends with someone off a chat room, we got talking and after 3 months we both realised we’d started to fall in love with each other. We met up a few months later mainly for me to see if the feelings were real and when we saw each other I knew he was the man I wanted in my life. The now ex found stuff on my laptop about me and the “new man”, this was at 3am and he beat me and took my children out the house to his mothers. I did nothing, as I thought I deserved everything I got. It hurt like hell losing my babies as one was 23months and the other only 9 months old and yes it very nearly killed me inside.
Writing this is bringing back those painful memories. It has been 3 years ago now and I am still with the “new man” and we are so happy, happier then I have ever been my whole life. Now I only seeing my two babies 3 times a week and we now also have a 20 month old as well. I love all 3 of my babies the same … I know I get judged for what I did. I let my children go and people think I must be a heartless bitch for doing it, but i’m not all I did was fall in love with another man and this is my punishment.
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Big hugs to u x
Aw you poor thing. I had a relationship with a cross dresser once, it is odd and hard work. He was married too (im not proud of being the other woman) thing was everyone knew except his wife. Its soul destroying.
I’m really speachless after reading this, I don’t quite know what to say! I just hope that you find peace with what happened & live for the future! Big hugs hun x
Such a sad thing to go through. Hugs x
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wow! Big hugs hun xx
You never did anything wrong love. He drove you into the arms of another man who loves you. This man didn’t love you, he just used you to fulfill his sexual fantasies. You should try to get some legal help and fight for your children through the courts as he has already proven to you how selfish and depraved he is. X
Hun you are incredibly strong and brave , and thats proven by the fact you have plucked the courage to share your story. Big hugs to you and you did the right thing! x
Oh Hun. You have nothing to be ashamed about. You didn’t willingly give them up… I can’t imagine how you feel but you have 3 wonderful children and a lovely oh as a lady said go thru the courts xxx
Big hugs hun xx
Big hugs hun. You didn’t do anything wrong hun xx
Big hugs to you hunni. It was not your fault, he was not the man you fell in love with he changed. I hope you and your kiddies are all happy, try to get some legal advice as surely a man who has beat you wouldn’t be allowed to have custody of your children. Hope it all works out and you are all together again soon x
you poor thing xx
o no hun you didnt do wrong he did he pushed you into some other mans arms not the other way round.. cant u take your kids back hun bug hugs for you xx
My ohs mum was once with a cross dress and she left him as soon as she found out x
i don’t think you left your children.
Yu also didn’t deserve the way he treated you.
I hope things are better for you now xx
Hun he was the one who pushed u away dont blame yourself….. Cant yu get the kids back with yu? x
A very brave story. Thank you so much for sharing with us. Please don’t feel guilty, all you did was fall in love. I hope you the best for the future xx
Bog higs hunni you didn’t do anything wrong xx
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Amazing story. You obviously felt at the time it was the way you were being punished n so you done what you thought was right. Hugs to you Hunni xxxxxX
Big hugs hun I could never imagine what its like to loose your children I get all emotional just at the thought of loosing caitlan it wasn’t your fault tho hunni as others have said your ex pushed you into the arms of your new partner you did so well being with him when he started to cross dress ect but you knew your boundries and was strong to stick to them (not calling him female name) it must have been so hard for you sticking around but you did it for your children he was the one in the wrong taking your children away from you was cruel and wrong but I really hope that you are now happy and see your children as much as you can xxxx
i know how hard it was loosing your kids. all i can say is i know you are happy with TG. and i hope one day your angels live with you. ps you should have used that disk you found :p
big hugs huni, what a hard position too be in xx
Hugs honey! Its a stange world! Emma fantastic pictures to go with this post xx